Friday, September 7th 2007
In Japan, I’m told, it is believed that if one folds 1,000 origami paper cranes then one’s greatest wish will be granted.
I don’t know if that is true. I believe it’s just wishful thinking.
However, a person with an aching heart will grasp and claw and cling to any hope.
A hundred apologies, for an offense of which I am not aware, have not softened your heart.
A thousand prayers have yielded no results.
Ten thousand wishes have been made in vain.
A hundred thousand tears have been shed for naught.
I fold.
I weep.
I pray.
I wish.
And, I hope that one day it will be penance enough.
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Wow, that’s is one hard heart that you are trying to reach. I hope it happens for you.
No more than I do, Sandee~skt
According to Jewish tradition, you’re a week early, Shelly. Between Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur, you are supposed to ask three times (in a heartfelt manner) for forgiveness from any person you’ve wronged. If the person denies you forgiveness and you truly mean it, after that third time, God forgives you.
Hang in there.
Well I’ll have to try again next week (though I think I’ve already asked during that week for the last two years).
~skt
agree with Comedy Plus, that’s one tough heart you’re trying to soften up. I hope it happens someday soon dear!
I’ll hang on and hope. He will probably never see this. Thanks, though~skt
Now I’m all misty eyed! I haven’t been very lucky with things lately, but I will keep good thoughts so that whoever it is has a change of heart soon.
What an awful situation to be in. I really feel for you.
Hugs
Jessica
I’m learning to roll with the punches on this one, but every now and then get overcome. It’s been two years…
Thanks for the good thoughts and the hugs~skt
WHatever has your heart so heavy, I’ll light a candle in hopes that your burden lifts soon.
(((hugs)))
I appreciate you, Mo~skt
Sometimes wishful thinking is all we have. Don’t give it up. Love and kisses your way!
Thank you Vickie, you have a big heart~skt
In some situations the only forgiveness you’ll receive is that which you give yourself. Two years?
I agree with Comedy+. You’ve done all you can, it’s time to stop. Perhaps one day the other party will finally get it.
Huge Hugs to you and your tender heart this beautiful Saturday morning!
Late in reply, as always, but thank you for your hugs~skt
Beautiful post - hope the heart softens.
Thank you, Lisa. It’s my greatest wish that his heart does soften~skt
My own heart hurts for your pain.
I’m sorry for it, and I hope you find your way back to each other again somehow.
In the meantime I’ll be holding you close in my heart my friend.
I appreciate the kind words, and the friendship, Robin. It helps~skt
Someone else above said that “In some situations the only forgiveness you’ll receive is that which you give yourself” - I agree.
If you have been sorry about a situation for 2 years, it is no longer about the situation, it has moved into the realm of power-tripping.
If they cannot forgive, they cannot forgive and you will have to accept that if your contrition has not moved them thus far it is not about their forgiveness any more.
If you have worked through the whats and whys of what you did and you can sleep at night (taking out the factor of their feelings) then that is all you can do.
If you cannot sleep even taking out the factors of their feelings, your energy should be in finding forgiveness for yourself.
If they cannot work through what you have done and find forgiveness in their hearts then perhaps it is time for them to acknowledge that it will never come.
If it will never come, it is best to work towards the life where that will not constantly hurt you.
Good luck.
Thanks, Jeanie. Though intellectually I know that what you say is true, this situation seems to be out “emotion,” and my brain has a hard time controlling them. I appreciate the good wishes~skt
They are beautiful… if is in folding, in appreciating the beauty of each one, in the repetitive motion of doing, and in just being that will help still your heart… Read between the lines and grab your hug from the clouds - and me.
Thank you, Marcia. The folding and thinking is therapy in a way. I appreciate the hugs~skt
Shelley: You amaze me.
Thanks for visiting, Shauna…I hope “amaze” is a good thing ~skt